30mins awy from taking my life
Dear Friends & Family,
When you get down reading this the people who have done this will know who I'm talking to you and you other guys I just didn't want to leave you without an explanation. my meds have stopped working and this way my last support system.
I'm just tired of fighting against the wolves in this world. It seems like no matter what I do or how I do it, I'm constantly getting thrown to the ground by people. Constantly called a failure and that I couldn't amount to anything. bullied to the point I don't know forward from backwards, or who's in my life to save me or who's in my life to hurt me.
I don't know if anyone knows how it feels to be called a failure all your life even when you did everything those people asked of you. Rejected by so-called family, destroyed by people who said that they loved you. Torn to piece by society.
Where is that one safe place that everyone keeps talking about. that last ray of hope? Because all I see is the soft fast movement of the blade and the sound of scarlet droplets hitting the floor by my feet.
No one knows what I have done because no one cares to look for me, they don't realize the suffering I'm going through. Every time I have tried to tell people what I'm dealing with and what I'm going through it would just stress their life's and cause sorrow. So it better if I leave this way locked away in darkness and away from people. Just to disappear into thin air.
To the people that tried to help me and tried to be their for me. I want to apologize for the pain and sorrow I'm going to put you through. I have tried to keep my head up and to continue fighting through the darkness but this time I'm to tried to get back onto my feet and fight any longer. I just want to go to sleep and wake from this long nightmare.
Sincerely,
Kathryn A. White
When you get down reading this the people who have done this will know who I'm talking to you and you other guys I just didn't want to leave you without an explanation. my meds have stopped working and this way my last support system.
I'm just tired of fighting against the wolves in this world. It seems like no matter what I do or how I do it, I'm constantly getting thrown to the ground by people. Constantly called a failure and that I couldn't amount to anything. bullied to the point I don't know forward from backwards, or who's in my life to save me or who's in my life to hurt me.
I don't know if anyone knows how it feels to be called a failure all your life even when you did everything those people asked of you. Rejected by so-called family, destroyed by people who said that they loved you. Torn to piece by society.
Where is that one safe place that everyone keeps talking about. that last ray of hope? Because all I see is the soft fast movement of the blade and the sound of scarlet droplets hitting the floor by my feet.
No one knows what I have done because no one cares to look for me, they don't realize the suffering I'm going through. Every time I have tried to tell people what I'm dealing with and what I'm going through it would just stress their life's and cause sorrow. So it better if I leave this way locked away in darkness and away from people. Just to disappear into thin air.
To the people that tried to help me and tried to be their for me. I want to apologize for the pain and sorrow I'm going to put you through. I have tried to keep my head up and to continue fighting through the darkness but this time I'm to tried to get back onto my feet and fight any longer. I just want to go to sleep and wake from this long nightmare.
Sincerely,
Kathryn A. White
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