general update

hello everyone it is around lunch time thursday afternoon nd i am sittin at my sisters house kinda bored since i am babysittin my niece nd nephew who are 13 nd 9 so they are lil punks but not much work since they are downstairs playin video games.  so other than them arguin nd fightin this mornin it is easy helpin my sister out, even if i have to get up wayyyyyy too  early but o well. they are now makin cookies so i help em out a lil with tht but other than tht jus blah       i no i havent journaled in some time nd i always take a month off then say this same thing but ill jus give an update since i enjoy journalin nd gettin it off my chest even if noone is reading or listenin, nd they make no sense cuz i usually am dopin 3 things at once. but here we go i no i havent updated any of my goals nd now i think i need to push them back cuz runnin or workin out is not goin to well as i been slackin off wayy too much. so startin next week i will start goin to the Y again to run or actually to the track if its not too cold. my confidence is startin to get lower too cuz my speech i feel is not improvin or maybe takin a step back, i dunno the girl im seein doesnt notice it at all, i think she is jus lyin like the nurse who i do all my talks wit for think first nd my coworker say tht its not tht bad. but i jus feel its startin get a lil shaky nd im not confortable sp[eakin tht much. i dont no. as i was sayin i have been seein this girl for a couple months who is in law school at rutgers in camden NJ, which is about a 40 min drive for me not too far. but she doesnt have her car since she is from cali. things have been going good i see her on the weekends cuz she is soo busy with school so tht is fine i guess. i jus dont no cuz she is very pretty but she is jus a lil bigger than i dont no. i no after every journal i say tht a girl is larger than i dont no i like them like tht kinda its jus not wat is good. look i guess im shallow i dont want to be but shit happens i guess she is a great girl ahhhhhh im a mess. i dunno i have to go actually be a babysitter now nd do somethin with these kids ill try nd write more later or journal again before 2months so im gonna try updatin these more oftern. ooo ya about tht date my friend set me up with who also had a TBI well tht went i guess good but we had pretty much no chemistry even tho we had a lot in common i guess but i was jus too nervous since she was more the type i like nd very pretty too. but oo well tht didnt work out. nd another thing right quick the basketball season startd up again so i now coach 5th 6th nd 7th grade girls twice a week with a few kinda friends nd tht is def fun i like doin this even tho im not tht good at coachin a team im more of the talk to ya one on one nd help ya out tht way. so im tryin to teach these girls skill since most of them have never played. o all in all its fun very challengin but fun  at the same time. God bless everyone hope yall are doin good