wow i should defitenily be sleeping right now since i do have a math test tomorrow, i just finished looking over it once again hopefully it stink in my dam dumb ass memory this time. Well i also need to understand tht god has a plan or reason for me still being alive. I' just wish it was more clear cut direction and him actually pointuing or sayin this is what i want you to do.. but ooo well i just gotta keep on keepin on. well a lil while ago i spoke with emily ( my ex) and i just gotta get past the fact tht we are no longer together but now we are even better friends, as soon as i put my defenses down and allow me and her to become better friends. but its just hard for me to let go of one of the best things i have ever had. and im sure if i keep going something will turn up but im just scared right now.. i dunno im a mess and i got a test tomorrow then i gotta do my speaking to high school kids too. so i got a lot on my plate tomorrow i need some sleep.
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Well, first of all good luck on the math test bro. I completely \"found God again\" after my accident, I am glad that the Lord is a source of strength in your life. Nothing is quite pointed out that easily bro, I wish it was too. I know that God has a plan for the both of us, it will come, be patient bro. I totally understand what you are going through with Emily. Kelsey (my ex) and I broke up about a month ago after 4 years of being together, she was also the best thing that had happened to me thus far in life. I don\'t see it as losing anything though, I gained a best friend, that is what I did. She knows me better than anyone on this planet and everyday I try to appreciate that. Just every night before you go to bed, thank the lord for what you have and appreciate, that is what I do. Well I am glad that I met you and can relate to you and I am glad that you are on this site, it will be helpful in a matter of time, just be patient. God Bless Sean.
I think that comment I just made dwarfed your journal..........whoops.
you will never lose me... i never left you and never will