So I went to the drs and she said the lump on my throat is prob a swollen glandd. She gave me an antibiotic. She is also willing to give me abilify in replacement of my seroquel. She is only starting me on 5 mg though. I was taking 100 of my seroquel, i dont know if this will even out or not. i always feel she doesnt  know what she is talking about and she is going to screw up my meds. I can not wait to see a real p doc. So keith and i got into a huge fight. I feel so embarressed writing about this but hey its my journal right? He wanted me to get off the internet the other night and i said ok, ill be off in 5 mins. Well i guess that was not quick enough for him because he got up and went to unhook the net and then called to cancel it. Then when i went to the bathroom, he took my laptop and smashed it. Then he took my camera and my money out of my purse, well that mad me mad, so i took the scissors and smashed them into his big screen tv. I know this was so wrong of me, but i was just so mad over him smashin my things. So after i did that, he took a hammer and went outside and smashed in my van windows.My daughter was in her room and i went in and took her out of bed and carried her 40lb butt a 1/2 mile down the road to her dads house at almost midnight.He also smashed the remote starter to the van. He said that he bought the laptop and it was his, so it gave him the right to break it if he wanted too.The next day a child protective services worker came to my door and said that she went to my 5 yr old daughter leahs school and asked her about the incident.She said that she wants leah to live with her dad and if keith and i didnt get help, then they were going to take the baby too. So keith says he has a aner problem and wants to get help. So he waiting for a counselor to call him back.He has replaced my lap top, van windows, and car starter and he ordered the new screens for his tv. He thinks just replacing the stuff will fix everything.If he says hes sorry and he knows hes in the wrong and he wants to get hellp, this is a start, right?