So yeah, i feel pissed off right now. I was just thinking about the time when i was in the hospital and my husband went out with some other girl, while i ws in the F*cking psych ward. U gotta be kiddingme!! This happened Aug of 06 and i am still so pissed about it. He is lying here right next to me sleeping and i could just jump on the f*cker. Ugh. How do I get over something that happened so long ago? I mean, i am really pissed about this. I took all my meds and im not even sleeping yet.So today was a bad day. I found a lump underneath my chin and i have been so depressed all day long. I did not even do 1 thing. I just took care of my baby, thats it. My husband wanted me to go paintballin with him, but i was so depressed and had no energy.Tomorrow, i am going to call my dr right away and see if i can get in to see her about the lump and to see if she can try me on some new meds. I waant to try ABILIFY. Anything u want to tell me about it, feel free.
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The nerve your husband had while you were in the hospital. You are being very good to him. (Although my husband is the one who is sick and he has put me through alot with his illness and talking about other women.) I don\'t think it matter illness or not it is not right to be unfaithful no matter what...
I hope you get that lump checked out.
I went on a very long manic phase and it changed my entire personality. I ended up not being faithful during this time and everything was a huge mess as I came down.
This is absolutely no excuse, and I am haunted by it... But this is something that really messes with your head if you don\'t get help. I think about who I am, and how I feel about my husband, and I never thought I could ever do that to him or myself... But like I said, I was not myself. And how I let it get so far without realizing something was wrong... I will never understand that.
I know your husband is not the one with the disorder, but have you thought about counseling with him? This is what me and my husband are working on. I know he is upset and having a hard time forgiving... But I am working on letting him know that I am doing everything I can to keep from ever getting to that point again.
No matter how things turn out, they will turn out for the better.
I\'ll pray for you.