I just found out I'm pregnant. I don't know how I feel about it though. We are days away from the one year anniversary of the start of his infidelity. It was August 21 last year that the texting started between them. In a few more months will be the one year anniversary of his physical betrayal and a month later will be D-days anniversary. I know this and I've been contemplating it wondering how it will affect me. Will it be harder or easier than the last year? Now I'm pregnant and I feel like it won't matter how this plays out, I no longer have an out. He told me if this had happened 6 months ago he would not have been happy because he didn't know if we were going to make it but he feels like now we are/could. He also doesn't want to tell anyone yet because we've miscarried before and it was devestating and he doesn't want to have to face everyone if anything happens. But that leaves us only eachother to talk about this. I want another outlet. I fib to him often about how I feel because he seems very sensitive and I don't want to hurt his feelings. He fully regrets his actions and we have come a long way since D-day but I know I still hold back and I still feel half numb/dead. And now we are going to have another child together.