Empty

I went out with my friends last night. We had fun. It didn't last.
I feel empty. I do not care. I don't care what I watch, what I eat, what I see, what I do. They talked about seeing Magic Mike -- the hot guys in it.  I honestly could not care less about it.  I do not find anyone attractive or sexually stimulating.  They had joked about going to an all male review.  Umm, yeah, don't give a shit about that.  I could see the hottest thing ever and think, meh.  Who cares.
When even food has lost it's allure, I'm in big fucking trouble.
I don't know how to WANT again.  My nether regions are probably shriveled and have cobwebs, not for my husband's lack of interest, but for mine.  I love him.  I love my kids.  But I feel no attraction or pleasure.  Empty might be a feeling?
If I sit too long I want to sleep.  Time to move.  I can't afford to sleep.
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