Can't sleep...
I'm up late again at night, nowhere near ready to go to bed. Not because I'm anxious or anything, but I just awake. I think Prozac is making me so I do not feel a lot. I did not cry today. I did not get teary eyed or weepy, mostly because I have just stayed away from all the perfect mom stuff at church and I did not do much of anything today. We had breakfast, just me and DH, at a restaurant that I like, so I got a little love.
I want a new cell phone that has unlimited text, talk, and data. I don't have a smart phone right now but a cheap-ass prepaid phone that cannot even see pictures. I need to get something so that I am accessible even when I'm not home. I get nervous about being stranded without a phone.
I go back on my low-carb eating tomorrow. I have edema just from eating sugar and carbs this past week and I know that I have to get things done. I have to plan meals. I have to take the initiative, because no one else is going to. It's time to go back to lists in the morning so that I get a couple of things done every day, whether I feel like cleaning, cooking, or anything else.
I thought I could handle going off of Prozac or at least decreasing it significantly. I am able to stay on my diet better but I'm not the nicest person, feeling angry or frustrated very easy. I suppose I can continue at 40 but I'd like to get it to 40 every other day or less. I'm already going off of Topamax for migraines because it does not seem to be working any more.
Kids get out of school in 2 weeks. Yikes! Constant bickering 24/7 -- joy.
Depression as a constant companion really sucks. It's hard to get past the thinking stage and move on to action.
I'm going to try to go to sleep since it's after 1am. My kids get up too early for me to be up so late.
DD
I want a new cell phone that has unlimited text, talk, and data. I don't have a smart phone right now but a cheap-ass prepaid phone that cannot even see pictures. I need to get something so that I am accessible even when I'm not home. I get nervous about being stranded without a phone.
I go back on my low-carb eating tomorrow. I have edema just from eating sugar and carbs this past week and I know that I have to get things done. I have to plan meals. I have to take the initiative, because no one else is going to. It's time to go back to lists in the morning so that I get a couple of things done every day, whether I feel like cleaning, cooking, or anything else.
I thought I could handle going off of Prozac or at least decreasing it significantly. I am able to stay on my diet better but I'm not the nicest person, feeling angry or frustrated very easy. I suppose I can continue at 40 but I'd like to get it to 40 every other day or less. I'm already going off of Topamax for migraines because it does not seem to be working any more.
Kids get out of school in 2 weeks. Yikes! Constant bickering 24/7 -- joy.
Depression as a constant companion really sucks. It's hard to get past the thinking stage and move on to action.
I'm going to try to go to sleep since it's after 1am. My kids get up too early for me to be up so late.
DD
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