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Still have not smoked pot since September 2014 or used any opiates have had to use Lorazepam after losing my dad on 3/12/2015 then my brother 11 days later on 3/23/2015 seen a psychologist last month had an appt again today but only paid co-pay signed into patient list for billable hours and left with out seeing her just was not in the mood to talk about me. So here I am ....LOL....about me. I think these days I am really just trying keep track of my self and my spiritual disciplines that have been greatly lacking. I am truly blessed and have had so many prayers answered only to be given new challenges to grow. I am playing drums now for a Catholic Church Youth Mass in my area. Wrote a song for my dad and performed for my fathers mass/memorial at his church he attended. I was born and raised Catholic but have been baptized into a Baptist Church call Shadow Mountain Community Church it's where Dr David Jeremiahs broadcasts his Turning Point Ministries from. I was recruited at my dads funeral service at OLPH Catholic Church playing the song I wrote for my dad called "C13-Take Me Home" later they found out I also play drums and they needed a drummer more than a guitar player/singer so that's what I am doing on Sunday evenings at 5pm now. I like it because I have not been in a band for a long time playing the drums and I find it very relaxing and at the same time I get a lot of just moving my kit to set up every week...lol. I have some physical pain and trying to balance with fatigue and not miss any more work, because I missed so much in the last 6 weeks. If I make it through tomorrow will be my first full week worked in a long time. Depression not too much of an issue more the crazy drama of other people tilting me and making it harder for me to get back centered again. More sensitive then I should be with some customer calls (I work in tech support) but handling it. Was looking forward to the 45 billion dollar Comcast To Time Warner Cable merger that was suppose to complete this August 2015 but looks like it may be not happening after all. I would have been given a year severance package and sent on my way free to start a new life in a field of my choice like electro/mechanical drafting on computers rather than being yelled at all day by angry customers doing tech support. I cannot complain I work from home and VPN into the server for TWC and take call right at my own desk at home with all the benefits that come with working for a big corporation. So my cup of blessings is overflowing and my God is mighty and great and only through Him are all these things or any thing possible in my life. His unconditional love, grace and answer to a servant that is not worthy, because my God loves me like no one can and there is nothing He would not do for me if I only have the faith and spiritual discipline to ask His help and for blessings in others lives that is why it is so important for each of us to pray for one another.