I have been putting off some big decision for a while, and now my time is up.  I found I just don't have the strength to make the hard choices, I just push them off until they blow up in my face.  I never know what to do, I fear I will always regent whatever I decide.  Mean while time goes on and I miss out on life, just sitting and waiting for fate to make the choices for me.  I hate this part of me.