30 years

Where have the 30 years gone since you left Jerred? It feels like it just happened. I relived every moment last week at the times they happened (except for the parts my brain will not allow me to remember). I felt all the pain, the pain Jono was going through, the compassion from the communities around us, everything. Was it really 30 years ago? It sure did not feel like it. You were only 6 so there are not alot of memories, yet I try so hard to stay focused on the good ones. 

I miss you so much. I wonder how your years in school would have been. Would you have gone to college? What would you have majored in? I am positive you would have been successful like both your brothers have become. Would you be married? How many grand babies would you have given me. These are the things I have truly have missed and weigh heavy on my heart. I know this is selfish. God only loaned each of you boys to me until you finished the job he sent you here for. As we all are God's children.

Knowing this I pray God would take the pain away from me and Jono. It is my daily prayer so God must have a reason for us to remember and feel the pain. I have not and will never forget you my sweet little boy, 6 forever! Until we meet again I will love you always Jerred!!