yay its over :) ha not by a long shot, but my mental health is good. i get it now, mat perry from the show friends said (in ref to his awakening about his addiction\" which was pretty simple yet so hard for most, he said \"i just finally got it\" the same sentence was said to me 1000 times and i didnt get it, it was said once more and i understood\" i see myself at the machine i last played, it was during the day, i snuck away from work, i got my comp and ready to go, each time i hit the button is physically hurt my brain, i think thats why i would drink while playing, cause the monotony was too much for me to handle, yet i needed it and craved it.....ugh..im sitting in my kitchen, schools out next week, summers here, my life is far for perfect, but better here, then there, hope this helps someone, anyone out there, like your stories helped me...and more importantly HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE and make me want you guys to be Proud of me...thanks :) :)
First off, congrats on over a month sober! I dont know you, But I know its hard to do. I just wanted to let you know your posts give me peace of mind that I too myself CAN AND WILL get through this. I am only 2 days sober.. well almost 3. Anyways, I just wanted to say congrats, and great job :)
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yay its over :) ha not by a long shot, but my mental health is good. i get it now, mat perry from the show friends said (in ref to his awakening about his addiction\" which was pretty simple yet so hard for most, he said \"i just finally got it\" the same sentence was said to me 1000 times and i didnt get it, it was said once more and i understood\" i see myself at the machine i last played, it was during the day, i snuck away from work, i got my comp and ready to go, each time i hit the button is physically hurt my brain, i think thats why i would drink while playing, cause the monotony was too much for me to handle, yet i needed it and craved it.....ugh..im sitting in my kitchen, schools out next week, summers here, my life is far for perfect, but better here, then there, hope this helps someone, anyone out there, like your stories helped me...and more importantly HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE and make me want you guys to be Proud of me...thanks :) :)
First off, congrats on over a month sober! I dont know you, But I know its hard to do. I just wanted to let you know your posts give me peace of mind that I too myself CAN AND WILL get through this. I am only 2 days sober.. well almost 3. Anyways, I just wanted to say congrats, and great job :)
thank you so much, how are you doing?