3/30/2019 11:54 am

i feel numb... and all i can say to anyone is im sorry im not the person you meet. im sorry im a shitty person. im sorry for not being happy. im sorryfor faking a smile.im sorry for being sad. im sorry for letting my depresion be the bear today and almost every day.im sorry i cant feel or heal. im sorry im a mess and im sorry for trying to call out for help. im sorry fo rthe pain ive caused, the pain i couldnt help go away. im sorry that i am a waste of space, a waste of air, a waste of time, a waste of everything. i get it im nothing. but even when i am nothiung i fight everyday and scream for help or try to talk everyday. im runing out of air in a sea of feelings that drown me. no one can hear me im all alone screaming dont let me drown just help me fight to stay afloat one more day. i have prayed more times this year then i have in years. im lost at sea with only myself and only i can keep myself from going under but each day i get weaker and weaker it eats me alive .