3-24-08

Well this another day. The wife slept in the bed last naght again but i didnt mean anything.I am so afraid of loseing her but I think that is a forgone conclossin and its going to happen.I know what im suppost to do but I cant seam to do it. I want to have her around until we are both old and gray. well in pretty gray as it is but still. After everything that has been said and the actions that have been taken I dont know for sure all I know is that if she leaves I will be emonitonaly distroyed you see the cars(that right 2 car payments) and the mortage 1 payment is hers but she wont beable to pay the payment and the rent where every she goes.That will put me in a bind becouse both the car loans are in my name. Ill probably write more later but for now.Ok the wife just came home and guess what SHE HATES HER JOB and is trying to fine a new one. Another reason to not to be in love me and not be there for me but to see I am there for her im what ever she deicides to do with it all.My wife has got a job interview tomarrow and if she gets this job it maybe more money and if its enuogh money I know that she is as good as gone from the house and that would be the end of this marrage that really has not been one for awhile