3/20/16

Starting to get used to my braces now, they loosened up after about the 4th day and fit good now and I really can't feel them in my mouth now.  Others have said in YouTube videos that after a few days the tray will fit better, the first few days of each tray it's really tight.  Still annoying popping them out every time I eat and drink, but as the tray loosens that gets easier too.  At least I know my teeth are moving!  I just hope I'm doing this right and I didn't damage the tray.  I don't see my dentist until April 8th, so I won't know until then.  I put the second tray in on the 25th and I'm anxious to see if it will fit...I might try to pop it in Thursday night, the 24th, just for the heck of it...
Yeah 2 of 35!  Long way to go, 70 weeks...but heck I'm already a week and a half in...I think the last 3 trays are optional to from what I'm reading online.  So I may only have to do 32 trays I hope lol.  That would be around May 15th, 2017, if I have to do the whole 35 it's July 11th, 2017, just in time for my birthday!  :)
I saw Jenna yesterday, but for the first few times since I met her I didn't sleep over...Crazy thing is I don't know why...I just felt like going home I guess.  Jenna is so sensitive to emotions she was crying and thought she did something wrong.  She really didn't though, I think the house I'm buying and my investment house and my braces, and everything were weighing on my mind.  I felt sad, Jenna could see it in my face too, she always knows...
I wanted to go back and see her today, but I'm just too tired now.  I'll see her Friday though because of the long weekend I'm off.  I still feel like a jerk about it because I don't know why I left...Kinda scares me I can just walk away like that.  
I know it's my depression in the end.  My inspection on the house on Friday went alright, but the inspector found the insulation needs to be replaced and there could be mold but it needs to be tested because the insulation was wet.  So the seller has at least agreed to fix it before closing.  
But I'm sure that has something to do with why I left last night and all.  Things just bother me quicker than a normal person, I'm not sure if it's because of my brain damage from birth and my CP.  I had a stroke at birth after all and that I know for a fact makes you more emotional.  I saw it after my uncle had his stroke.  He would cry and get mad faster.  Maybe as I get older it may get worse... :(
I talked to Jenna on Skype this morning, and she was still sad, I could see her tearing up.  I feel bad, but sometimes it's better to leave than to drag your girlfriend into your problems.  I like being happy around her, which normally I am, but last night I was just depressed.  She was sad too because her friend's Dad passed away, so I guess we all have issues.
But that's why I love the girl, she truly cares about people, its not a fake emotion, its real and pure.  Well I'll Skype my baby later, till next time, and hopefully I'll be a bit cheerier!  :)