3-16-15

Today was not a good day.  Overslept because I took sleeping pills last night because I could not fall asleep.  Also woke up really depressed and had no motivation to get up.  Finally got to work two hours late.  Felt horrible all day.  Completely unproductive.  Think someone almost caught me with tears in my eyes at my desk. Sometimes i cry at work and have to hide it.  Left at 2:00, took a half day vacation because I could not take it anymore.  Came home and went to workout with my kids hoping it would make me feel a little better.  Always does for awhile. Talked to my soon to be ex.  She is actually mad at me because I took her off my life insurance as a beneficiary.  She left me because of my depression and is living with another man but still expects money when I die. Now I am just waiting for this day to end. Hoping tomorrow will be a little better. :(