3-15-11, Ides of March
This day is famous for the betrayal of Cesar, and I feel too that I am betraying someone.
I feel that I should tell him that I am still in school (last semester, working on the degree...) but I know he will be angry. I lied about having finished it back in November. I've been lying about it since...it's something that snowballed. I don't know what to do...he was so mad at me over text messages last night. I think he deserves better than someone who lies to him, but ....I've put up with so much, I wouldn't lie unless I felt I had to. The "survival" lies...so he won't break up with me...
I feel like such a failure. No matter what I do, I'm doomed in this. I can't go there (multiple reasons) and he can't come here (I'm SO afraid of that).
I feel that I should tell him that I am still in school (last semester, working on the degree...) but I know he will be angry. I lied about having finished it back in November. I've been lying about it since...it's something that snowballed. I don't know what to do...he was so mad at me over text messages last night. I think he deserves better than someone who lies to him, but ....I've put up with so much, I wouldn't lie unless I felt I had to. The "survival" lies...so he won't break up with me...
I feel like such a failure. No matter what I do, I'm doomed in this. I can't go there (multiple reasons) and he can't come here (I'm SO afraid of that).
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