2nd journal, just had to post. really upset about something.

just wanted to add into my journal here, as i'm very upset this evening.
We had some issues here at home yesterday afternoon/evening. my mom babysits the triplets and Brody.the kids are sometimes bad, and they don't listen, and can be very disrespectful. Holly and i went upstairs yesterday afternoon, the kids were in the kitchen, and began to flick water in my face, Holly was behind me. it was very upsetting, when Alyssa came here, i told her, and also mentioned to the kids, that i wish they wouldn't do that. it really hurts me, when i get treated like this, i'm a good uncle to the kids, baking with them, and giving them cool toys, gifts, and don't deserve to be treated like that. Jenn, Lisa, Bobby,Charlie, they don't get water flicked in their face, when they come over to visit. the kids did apologize, but were also trying to say they didn't flick water directly at me, or Holly, but they were. they drive my mom nuts, when she babysits them, and they need to respect us all, and our home. the money i loan to Alyssa, this year, helped them to go on trips to six flags, and they can be so disrespectful, to people. it really hurts. i told them, if it happens again, i will cancel baking friday, i was very upset, and hope they will be good, to us all. they are 11 years old now, and should know better. Alyssa and Aj, let the kids get away with alot, and it can be very upsetting ,how they get all of these benefits, and can still be so disrespectful. i'm tired of not standing up for myself, getting disrespected, and these kids flicking watering in my face, it's rude, hurtful, and shouldn't be tolerated.

also getting lots of disrespect from my sister Lisa lately. really sick of it, and done with it. i've helped her, and her bf for over 18 months, numerous times with their rent, and bills, and finally stood up for myself ,and said i won't help them with rent money anymore. when Lisa borrowed, she said, she would always pay me back, and would bring an iced coffee for me ,but when i said i wouldn't help with rent anymore ,as loaning money stresses me, she got very upset and said hurtful things to my mom ,about family, and also stopped paying me back in late september, until 2nd week of november, when she comes here, she is rude, slams doors, doesn't bring iced coffee, and acts angry toward family. all i did to help her, and it's the thanks i get? it's really upsetting, am done supporting her,  and her bf. no more. she owes me money, and is the one acting rude, and mad? really upsetting. she doesn't even care about how i'm doing, it's all about money to her. really am done with all of this rude, emotional abuse from some family members, and have had enough of it. Holly knows i've been suffering, wanting my money back, and Lisa puts me on a $50 a  week, payback process, and acts mad and rude to  me? i'm the one who helped, and  would like my money back, am finished helping her. 

i'm really venting this out, as i feel very emotional, and hurt. i didn't post about this emotional/financial abuse from Lisa, as i didn't want anyone to worry. i just have to get this out there, and let you all know i've been able to hold it together emotionally. things like going to the post office, and also going to sweet treats tuesday ,were cancelled, by my "sister" lisa, not us, that loved those traditions, it's all lisa, who has made these changes happen to our days ,and our lives, she's a total different person, and says hurtful things about family. i've helped and helped her so much ,and no more now.