2nd entry ~ part 2

So I've come to realize that I've been doing the begining of my diet wrong and it's a crucial part.  I've been eating way too many bananas, eggs, and even had baked apples.  I've also been making smoothies with my homeade yogurt.  I've been rocommended to start over and I'm.....pissed!  It was already so hard!  I don't know.  I'm in so much pain right now.  My lower back is killing me which happens alot when I have this much diarrhea.  All I want is some of my 3 yr olds SpongeBob Macaroni & Cheese!!!  Okay that's not really not all I want, but it looked SO damn good!  I tried to run to the store this afternoon and spent half the time in the bathroom and the rest of the time I was crunched over in pain.  I wish I had more pain pills.  At least they take the edge off.  I'm going to a Birthday dinner tonight at the Olive Garden and am trying to decide if ordering the grilled salmon will be okay.  This will be my first time eating out.  I also have my sons Birthday party tomorrow.  No pizza and cake for me :o(. Rrrrrr...