2nd entry

I've lost another lb.  I'm really going to get scared if I go below 100!  My diarrhea has not gotten any better.  I'm convinced I have c-diff again although I tested negative.  Considering I've had it in the past I know how it feels.  I plan to get re-tested this week.  I found it so hard to go to my best friends baby shower this weekend.  I brought along a banana for myself but it was still so hard not to touch any of the food, especially the cake!  I've decided not to go back to work this week.  I just don't have near enough energy and am going to the bathroom WAY too often!  The worst part about this is I feel like I'm taking my boyfriend down with me.  He has been a HUGE help with the kids!  I just wish we could go out and have fun like we used to...he deserves that! I guess I do, too.  Someday soon, right?