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I have been dealing with my Oldest Son and loss f my Grandaughter for over 5 years now. My Daughter(the youngest) has started more drawn a and feels I am a monster because I stopped sending Money and told her to few up at 30 years old! I sometime think I cannot deal with one more thing from my children! They are so self entered and unfeeling when it comes to me! They want to hit me. The only one who will communicate is my Middle child a so. And he is 40 now, after some counseling he and his wife at least call and text some. There are so many of us out here in this cruel state of affairs ! I am so sorry for the loss all of the good parents in the world are experiencing with no just cause, ! A generation of entitled , controlling young people breaks my heart! I could have never stopped my children from seeing their Grandparents , or stopped communicating or checking on my Mom! I did not raise them this way and I certain did not act this way! Where does it come from?? Heartbroken
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Today was a good day for me. My middle so called me today and we really talked. He was supportive and kind. He said he and his wife are thinking of adopting a child and if they do he would never stop me from seeing the child. First time he has said anything that implied he did not agree with his older brothers decision. To take my sweet Grandaughter away from me! I am so thankful to have one relationship with one of my chikdrenGod has blessed me this week! Praying that each of you has had a light spot I your week!
I am ok today! The art of staying busy and prayer and what keeps me going! But every time I see a Grandmother and he Graddaughter together my heart dips and I have to reframe my thoughts and keep moving! I hear a child call Nanny or Nana in the Maul or store and it happens every time! I know that each of you understand! With Gids help and continued prayer , I will survive and move forward but the sadness will always be there somewhere just under the surface of my emotions! We have to hold each other up in prayer and unite together to help us stay sane! I was not perfect but I loved my children and I worked hard to be the best parent I could ! I do not deserve this but it is my reality and I do have to live with it