One day at a time

Well I am starting my final week of BCP... I registered for classes today.. and started a new workout program (Rockin Body) to lose the last stubborn 20lbs.... The days are still the same for me some are better then others but im trying to push forward... its been tough because things are happening in my marriage that are out of my control... and my husband had the nerve to say to me the other day if only u had gotten pregnant earlier or didnt lose the baby things would be so different... Like I wanted to lose my child or planned purposely not to get pregnant... I dont get y ppl dont understand its really not a choice if it were up to me Id have millions of kids and the min i wanted them and trust me doing all this to try for a baby was the last thing on my mind when i was little and dreaming of being a mommy... as if dealing with IF isn't hard enough we have to deal with ignorant ppl....