it is saturday night and what a long week, and then to top it off my stepson calls and tells me that he needs to come home for 5 months because his parole officer said so, i was like no way in hell are you coming back here, he will be 18 in five months if i did not mention that before, that kid has destroyed my life, he stole from me and his father, he is on drugs, he does not go to school, and my marriage is falling apart each day, my spouse can't wake up to the fact that he was not a father, because i actually raised him , his mom wanted nothing to do with him and his dad always worked the night shift and i think that is because he can't deal with shit, i am sick of it and i don't know what to do, i have really no where to go, and i can't part with my 4 yr old lab/pitbull who is very hyper noone would want him and i can't take him to the pound, and then there is my two cats who can probaly come with me, wherever that may be, i have family but i would have to come alone with no pets they are like my kids and I love them very much, they are innocent, i know that may sound crazy. I told my husband that your child who is almost an adult is not coming back here to live, i know that must be hard to face but he has to realize that noone should have to live the way I was when he was here, i felt like I was in lockdown or something, hiding money and removing mostly everything of value from my house i even had to carry my laptop with me, along with everything else on a daily basis not a good way to live, and then he steals anything that is not strapped down even after he runs away my husband forgot to lock the patio door or something and he comes in and steals the xbox and wii, and even my christmas present the wii fit, he is such an asshole and I can't stand him , I just wish my husband would face reality, I am not the one with problem, not anymore, it has been well over two or maybe close to 3yrs since I am gambled, i have been going to work, going to the gym and paying bills not much of a life but that is reality, i made plenty of mistakes in which I already faced the consequence , why can't he treat me like a human being, I am 43 now and i don't deserve to be treated like shit everyday from someone, i just want too feel like normal and know what is feels like to be loved again I think it is probaly too late for that and maybe i need to take things to the next level, especially if he decides to let that adolescent teenager back in this house, alls i know is i can't live here if that happens i will not subject myself to his shit ever again. Well I guess I rambled enough, i just wish I can inherit alot of money real quick, I was always an independent person, but it is tough out there and i don't think I could do it own my own now. I hope everyone is having a good weekend, I will try to make the best out of tomorrow, my one day off this week, i will not let either of them ruin my day. Hugs to all , Mindy