It is kind of slow right now at work, so I decided to come here and just write some thoughts down. The year is almost here and I want to start it off right when it get here so here is what I am going do, I am going to try not to let the little things bother me as much, stay GF because Lord knows I can't control myself and the smoking well, I was good for about a week, I will try again soon, too quit too hard to quit two things at once. I want to live a peaceful somewhat normal life and I do feel alone alot since my husband works at night, so now that the stepson is not there is just me and my dog and two cats, it is nice sometimes to be alone, so I guess I should enjoy it. I know down the line things are going to get better and that everything that I do is my own fault not anyone else, so I am going to learn from my mistakes once and for all and start the new year off right, with a bang not a slot machine bell ringing, that is one good thing and my health is good. Gotta go. Hugs.Mindy
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Looking forward again, thats a good sign, you have your health and much more, you are a wonderful warm human being, and whilst we have to take responsibility for the things we do, \'everything I do is my fault\' is a bit harsh, we do the best we can with what resources we have at the time. That way when we reflect we see that maybe we could moderate or change something, or alter how we think. Don\'t go getting down on yourself. You face many challenges and you need someone special in your corner to help you on that way, that someone is you. Friends here, and family and husbands are wonderful helps, but without you be kind to yourself the other stuff is pretty diluted. So motto of the day \'I have things I want to change about myself but I am not an axe murderer\' some parts of me are actually excellent! sorry had to :) just for today we will be gamble free
I thought you were very brave trying to d two things at once. Don\'t be hard on yourself. You are remaining GF, this is the most important thing, the smoking issue you can tackle when there aren\'t so many stresses going on in your life. It is good to be able to reflect on the year to come and look forward to what it has in store for us. I am doing the same. Blessings and hugs for today. Suzi
Think trying two thing can be a bit overwhelming. I give you alot of credit. You will quit when the time is right. I know I should quit but can only try to quit one thing at a time. You doing great take care and have a good evening. Enjoy a good movie. Hugs Melissa
Make sure that when you do quit that you have patches or some other form to help you. It really is a life saver. Believe me, I know. I can quit, it is the staying quit that is hard for me. Oh, and it is not your fault that you are an addict. You probably would never have gambled once if you knew that you would be an addict and that all it takes is one bet to get to you. That is not something that you could have known or could have changed. It is something you must learn to accept as you move forward with your life. This next year has the chance to be the best of your life. You are in control right now, you just need to have faith in yourself. I know it is so hard with all the stress you are feeling, but give yourself a break once in a while. You are doing great!
hey mindy, heard that, spent the last two new years eves at casinos, not this one, wont be listening for them kind of bells when 2008 gets here. hugs
I\'m so proud of you! You have come such a long way. You have the right attitude! The New Year will be one of great things for you! Hang in there. Peace and Love. Patty
Mindy, two huge addictions at once is alot to tackle. I think you made the right choice, tackle gambling and then later do smoking. I smoke also(that was one of the things I loved about the stupid casinos is that you could go in and smoke up a storm with out anyone looking down on you for smoking). Maybe later in the year we will tackle this one together. Stay GF and Happy!!!
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J