Today was a horrible day for me at work, the only good thing is I stayed GF today, I worked all day it was so busy, I had no sleep at all last night, I had a spat with my husband over his son, who is a teenager now 15, who just thinks he can do whatever he wants, and I am so tired of it. I think some of that stress is part of my addiction. Well anyway the demons also have my sister too, so now I am like totally freaking out, she was supposed to come over my house last night to hang out, and I told her I did not want to go the casino, so she got mad and I think she went on her own, and said she was going to Atlantic City, so she gets on a bus, and goes about 1 1/2 away from where we live, and my Mom calls my brothers house tonight , I guess she figured I was hanging over there tonight, since my hubby is working some OT tonight and then tells us that my sister has ended up in the emergency room, I still don't know what was wrong with her except that her blood pressure was really high and she was having heart palpitations, so now at midnight my brother is driving down there to pick her up. I just hope everything is ok. She needs serious help. I will check in tomorrow. Everyone please stay GF free, this addiction is ruing me and my sisters and so many others lives. It is so evil and I can't believe what damage it has already done too me. Take Care. Mindy

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I hope your sister is ok. Sounds like you had an awful day. I hope tomorow will be better. The only positive thing that you didn\'t gamble .. Which is so great don\'t need added stress in your life. Wishing you all the best Hugs Nicky
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Its hard to be a parent, whether its a step parent, or a biological parent. I know from my own experience, the old \'divide and conquer\' routine. My own kids tried to do it to my ex and I. We realized what they were doing and didn\'t allow it to happen anymore. Of course we had other problems, obviously or he wouldn\'t be my ex.....
this addiction that we have, definitely takes a toll on our health. I can remember seeing people going out of the casino on a stretcher, others completely breaking down at what they had just done, others suffering silently. The toll that it takes on us, mind, body and soul, is a force to be reckoned with. Think back to how it would have been had someone told you that you had a problem and should seek help......it wouldn\'t have gotten that other person very far with you, until you were damned good and ready to ask for and receive that help.....perhaps you should sit down and have a heart to heart with your sister...let her know of your own stuggle, and that you are doing something about it....this may have been her eye opening experience, but no one knows that except for her.
This addiction is sly, cunning, deceitful, evil, and any other words you can think of to describe its perils. We take steps each and every day to see that we remove ourselves from its clutches, but we have to be ever diligent, cause it is always lurking around, waiting for a chance to jump in and take over the \'remote\' again. Just for today, I ask for the strength, guidance, and support to be GF.
hugs and love
Danya
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I hope your sister is OK. The demons don\'t cre who they ruin! Hang in there. Hopefully you can help your sister, that is after you help yourself. You\'re doing great. It\'s hard but you can do this. I\'m here for you! Peace and Love.