Well yesterday I slipped and lost about 50 bucks. I was mad and under stress that is no excuse I wish the urges would go away, and I wish I could win the lottery and pay all the bills and debts that I created from pressing a button on a stupid slot machine. I have been working overtime and I guess it is helping  a little. I just want my life to be halfway normal and not really have to worry about everything. I wanted to go the casino today but I did not go, I came home instead. I am going to go clean my house now and hopefully it will take my mind off of some things and then I will go to work tomorrow, and spend some time with my husband who I have not really seen all week because he works at night, I am lucky I guess that he is still with me because of some of the stupid stuff I do. Everyone take care and I will be back tomorrow.