I have been really busy lately and haven't had time to write, one good thing anyway I have not went to the casino. I did buy a few scratch off tickets spent like 5.00 of course did not win, but that is really nothing compared to when I was going to the casino. Things at work have been really crappy the past few days, it is putting me under so much stress I am so tempted to go after work, luckily I have plans. It is so hard for me not lose control right now. I don't know how I am going to get through the weekend. I will probaly be writing in this journal letter. Now I am just trying to get through my horrible work day.