Today just keeps getting better and better...NOT!
Have a doctor appointment at 4pm.
Now, I live in the same house with elderly parents. My has alzheimers.
My older brother and my 22 year old son.
Just took a Buspar hoping to calm down.
My sister was supposed to come over today. As always she calls saying she is sick. Don't know why she ever says she's coming. She's the only one who can bathe our mother. I can't do for multiple reasons.
Anyhow, she had the nerve to text me and ask if I could reschedule my doctor appt.? My family HATES me and I know it. My sister confirmed. I can tell she does to. If I text her for any reason I never get a reply. That is just being a bitch and being rude.
Why the hell does she think she needs to be here for me to see my doctor? Like the world stops for her. I don't have a car but I take a taxi when I need to get somewhere. I shouldn't let this stuff get to me anymore but it does. It's not my fault I'm bipolar and did crazy things that DID not have anything to do with any of them! The only person harmed was me. Mentally, and physically for several months. Don't know why I'm alive. Was so bad I kept wishing someone would murder me...was homeless...starving...and very sick. My family hates me 3 years later for not being normal? My dad thinks I'm faking to get SSDI. That I make excuses about why I can't keep jobs. I have never told him I'm bipolar. Why? He said I lie about everything. The one thing I'm not is a liar. The one thing I am is overly honest. Right now I just want to scream. I really need to work on moving out. This place is unhealthy. I think they are crazier then me sometimes.
Have a doctor appointment at 4pm.
Now, I live in the same house with elderly parents. My has alzheimers.
My older brother and my 22 year old son.
Just took a Buspar hoping to calm down.
My sister was supposed to come over today. As always she calls saying she is sick. Don't know why she ever says she's coming. She's the only one who can bathe our mother. I can't do for multiple reasons.
Anyhow, she had the nerve to text me and ask if I could reschedule my doctor appt.? My family HATES me and I know it. My sister confirmed. I can tell she does to. If I text her for any reason I never get a reply. That is just being a bitch and being rude.
Why the hell does she think she needs to be here for me to see my doctor? Like the world stops for her. I don't have a car but I take a taxi when I need to get somewhere. I shouldn't let this stuff get to me anymore but it does. It's not my fault I'm bipolar and did crazy things that DID not have anything to do with any of them! The only person harmed was me. Mentally, and physically for several months. Don't know why I'm alive. Was so bad I kept wishing someone would murder me...was homeless...starving...and very sick. My family hates me 3 years later for not being normal? My dad thinks I'm faking to get SSDI. That I make excuses about why I can't keep jobs. I have never told him I'm bipolar. Why? He said I lie about everything. The one thing I'm not is a liar. The one thing I am is overly honest. Right now I just want to scream. I really need to work on moving out. This place is unhealthy. I think they are crazier then me sometimes.
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