Tears

 
Seems tears are all I've known more years.  Rivers of tears.  Will they ever end?  Meds have been increased.  Maybe that will help.  Always feel like my heart is broken. 
Yesterday had a date.  Thought he was different.  Spent 2 days talking for hours on end.  He drove nearly 100 miles to come see me and take me to lunch.  We kissed, and for the first time I felt something. He brought me home.  Still all seemed so perfect.  Said he'd call when he got home.  No call came.  I sent a text.  He said when he finished with his daughter he'd call.   I knew he was going to see her.  No call came.  I sent an email and said I was confused. 
I thought for sure a man like him wouldn't play the vanishing game.  30 years in the Army, works for a general he should be a man of great integrity.  Yet he still can hurt a woman without any thought.  I haven't stopped crying.   Not sure why I keep trying to date.  It never works. 
Destined to be a spinster cat lady.