I am so glad this week is over! I spent the last few days sewing all day at uni untill 7pm, but at least its done now, I don't really like the result (its based on a circus theme and I had to work in a group, and its not really my thang). I'm really worried at the moment that I'm not good at what I do, I'm not good enough to be a fashion designer, maybe working next year will build my confidence up.I'm sleeping all the time at the moment, I can't stay awake! Plus I have my sedatives so if I can't sleep I can knock myself out with the tablets. Ah what a life!My ex boyfriend came over for some company last night and we spent a lot of time talking about self harm (he has had another girlfriend who suffered from it), its made me think a lot about who I am and what I've been through. I don't really know what to write about it though....
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You are better than you know you are, far more talented, so stop self doubting yourself. I wouldn\'t doubt you. E
you know hun its ok to be a little self critical but stand back and take stock at what you\'ve done, if you were not good enough would you have been accepted into uni?? just do your best thats all you can ask of yourself!! I guess its hard to verbalise how you\'re feeling right now purely because you are still processing what you discussed.. why dont you post some pics of your work and let us compliment your talent!! I suppose its a bit late to ask you to make me something for Aintree Ladies Day lol!!
awh thanks guys!
I think it is fair to say that self harm is crazy (illogical) behaviour, and crazy can not be described, hence your inability to pen the right words. You are doing well at Uni believe it or not, you are hanging in there, you are not giving up, and while ever you are thinking and acting that way then success is assured, no matter how doubtful you may be thinking.
Keep on hanging in there because you are a CHAMPION of survival, even if you think that you are losing the battle, you are not because you are still here sharing your survival experience/s. Keep on fighting, because you are worth fighting for, you are the BEST!!!