I absolubtly feel like I'm going to pop. I feel angry at myself because I felt so good before. Now I feel like shit. I didn't go to my lecture today because I couldn't be bothered, I feel angry at myself for that. Everything is moving too fast and I want everything to stop. I feel like this emotion is going to spiral into a suicidal one and I don't know how to stop it. I want to relax but I can't I have no time, my classes and work are taking over everything. I feel like I'm relliving my abuse, I have night terrors again and I can't stop thinking about it. My whole life I've been messed up. I've been self harming for half of my life now. I can't cry I cant do anything, I'm just so so tired. Idealy right now, I'd cut or take an overdose or something, I just need everything to stop.