more updating...the depression is under control. I'm doing OK. But when I said I had no good reason to be depressed, that simply wasn't true. My youngest son has been in jail since before Christmas last year. Seems he became a drug addict. By youngest, don't misunderstand, this is no child. He's in his 30's with 2 kids of his own. And they are the ones suffering the most. It really is heart-breaking. You never thoiught when you looked at that little curly headed boy, that one day it would come to this. But it has. Really hard is the fact that he'll be getting out fairly soon and has absolutely nothing bit what was on him when they picked him up and I will not let him live here. He's been helped out of every nasty situation he's gotten himself into his whole life and it has to stop now. I love him. And I'm afraid for him, But I won't let him live with me (not that my new husband would stand for it anyway). I've paid for his atty. But I'm through. There's no more trusting what he says he'll do. Now he'll have to show us all first. I thank GOD for this site where I've been able to find others who are dealing with the same....Ok, I'm done. Thank you to all who have been so kind and encouraging to me.