Today

This afternoon I was stupid and decided to listen to the music,the music I listened to last winter all the time.The music brought back all the memories in detail.It drained all my battery power,I lay on my bed and stared at the wall for the rest of the day until dinner.When I had to go down to dinner,I plastered on a fake smile and a fake happiness. Last night I was sure that I'd finally found him,a best friend for the first time since I was a child.But tonight,I can tell,he's only talking to me to keep me going because he is kind,but I think maybe he is already tiering of me.And the loneliness is killing me.(yes I did get that last line from the song)