My Mum

On Thursday evening my mother passed away after a long illness, 2 weeks short of her 60th birthday. I always wanted her to make it to that milestone but it wasn't to be. We didn't expect to lose her just yet, we thought we had a few more weeks but I guess you're never ready for it happening. I was 500 miles from home when she died as I was away on my speech therapy course. I feel so guilty that I wasn't there there with my family at the time but they said she wanted me to be there as she was supposed to be there with me but she was too ill to go. She did so well, fighting cancer for 13 years but it took her away in the end and before the suffering got too bad so that is s blessing but I wish she was here. I'm not coping too well and I miss her so much. We didn't always get on as we were very similar but she was my mum and I loved her and I always will, it's so hard to deal with, I'm lost and don't know what to do. I've had loads of support which helps, especially from my beautiful girlfriend. Our relationship has been a bit rocky recently but when something like this happens you see things in perspective and you know what is right in your life. I just want to hold my girlfriend in my arms and know she there for me and that we are going to be ok. I wish my girlfriend and my mum could have met but mum will be looking down on us and up there taking good care of our daughter for us. I miss and love you mum always xxxxxxx