Well feeling a bit crappy today. I'm not sure whether I'm being parnoid or not but I think my symptoms are going/getting less. I know they come and go day by day but I've not had much sickness for the last 3 days (being truthful I have had it every day but not for long usually when I'm hungry) and I've not needed the toilet so much in the night either the last 2 nights. My breasts don't hurt that much too, but then they haven't much the whole pregnancy. Ahhhh I'm going mad I think. I keep hugging my little girl thinking I'm so lucky to have her but I know I'll have to cope with another loss come monday. I'm so pesimistic. Now I have to decide if I opt for a D&C (quick way out with no pain but not practical with a baby already) or taking the pill that makes you miscarry (ouch painful and not a good option either with a baby to look after). Decisions decisions, what do I do?????? Hubby not helping either. He's not the most supportive partner but sometimes he can be quite cruel. I said to him this morning that I think it will be bad news monday and he said well I'm happy its just the 3 of us, I don't really want another child. Think he's only saying it to make me feel better but a weird way of doing it. I guess he can't win whatever he says. Or am I being stupid???? I do hope everything is ok. I wish so much I could just have a normal pregnancy where I didn't have to stress like this. I just read a post about a doppler that someone got theirs working from 7 weeks. I have one from my last pregnancy and I remember reading they work from 9 weeks. I'm tempted to go and try it but I know it will make me feel so much worse if I can't find anything, coz lets face it it will be very difficult to find it at 7 weeks. Guess I'll have to wait till monday.
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