I’m feeling a bit pants, not that I should do but I can’t help it.  2 weeks ago I had a positive scan, something I have never had before (5th pregnancy).  Since then I have been worrying whether the baby is alive, is growing….  I was given the option of having a reassurance scan 2 weeks later, but one has not been arranged at the time.  I was told to call yesterday to arrange an emergency scan.  Well the hospital were too busy to talk to me and then they never called me back, I have had to pester them loads and I hate doing it. When I did get hold of them the sister said she would try and organise the scan for today, she has not bothered to call me back so being 4pm I guess today is out of the question.  I just want to get it over and done with, move on with things if I can.  Part of me thinks we might be lucky and the baby will be well, but I suppose because of my experiences I feel that things could go wrong just as easy.  I tell my self I am lucky to have made it this far, but with each day I get more attached so it will make it harder to let go if things go wrong.