I feel a bit pants today.  I have my 8 week scan tomorrow and i know its going to be like every other time.  They are going to say sorry but the baby died 2 weeks ago.  I feel stupid for having hope and thinking it possible for me to finally have a baby.  Maybe we'll get luck this time.  But i don't think so.  I have been trying to think if the other 4 times did i still have symptons this far in.  I don't think i did, but i still have this time.  The reason i thingk things have gone wrong again is coz this morning i had to take another test (hospital request), the line popped up really quickly but it was lighter than 2 weeks ago.  So i'm guessing my hormones haven dropped.  Am i being paranoid?I feel like this is the end of the line for me.  I've taken apsirin with this pregnancy and the Drs over here are rubbish and will not try anything.  so not sure where else to go.  I have an appointment booked with a specialist in 2 weeks but she is only going to repeat tests i've already had done.  What is wrong with me????  It makes me so mad, its so unfair.  Now i feel bad coz i found out my sister-in-laws best friend is dying of a brain tumor at 38 and there's me moaning coz i'm abnormal.Whoever reads this thanks for listening, i feel so frustrated and lonely.  Have no one to talk to.