I have recently been made redundant from my high powered stressful job and due to my fertility problems I have dedided to work with my husband in our family business to take some of the stress out of my life.  I must admit I working even longer hours, I'm not stressed but I'm bored and knackered and I don't know how much longer I can take this for.  All I think about is having a baby and how overdoing things has a negative effect. My whole like revolves around thinking about babies.  I've become obsessed and do not know how to get out of this rut.  My Husband says things might happen for us if I stop thinking about it all of the time.  My life has changed, I used to be quite confident, chatty and outgoing.  Now I'm so unsure of everything and can't be bothered to talk to anyone.  I feel like a right moody cow.Today I'm working on something really boring, I have the radio on, which is nice, but I'm on my own and thinking about my old boss who never wanted kids and gave me so much stick in all my 4 pregnancies / MC. I found out is pregnant and all is ok for her, I think to myself why.  Why is this happening to her?  I can't seem to stop thinking about it.  I have been told in the past other people I know are pregnant, I've been a bit upset when I found out but not like this.  Ihave not been able to sleep much since I heard.  Perhaps I feel like this because she was so unfair to me. My life seems to have turned into one indescive blur.  Should I get another job doing what I'm trained for, should I stay working in the family business, should I try for a baby, should I book the long awaited holiday, what happens if I get pregnant........Perhaps the holiday will be good, something to look forward to.