Tomorrow is my scan. Hopefully all is well and I can go off my BCP's and on my stims.Of course, I feel nuts. I always get crazy right before I am due to start IVF-even thought I have only one one we have had a few false starts. I get anxious, hyper-sensitive and I feel like my DH and I disconnect. It is hard to talk about and face the stress this puts on a marriage. We were at my friends house New years Eve and I could not help but wonder if my DH was wondering if he would ever have a house full of kids as they did. Life is so strange. My DH and I lived in the same building for two years before we met. i knew he liked me but for some reason I was not drawn to him. I realize life is all timing but cant help but kick myself over those years. I just wish he would put his arms around me and tell me how much he loves me and that it will all be ok- no matter what happens. That he will always love me and we will be together. This TTC canmake us so needy- I have never been needy before and I really hate how it feels.Sorry to be negative but I have to be honest here as I cannot anywhere else.So happy to see all the BFP's lately- esp with us older ladies!