I'm so upset.  I've been reading about other people's experiences with fusions and they are not good.  The pain is unreal for me.  I can't sleep nights because when I turn around in bed the pain wakes me.  I can't sit, I can't function or drive normally.  I've tried everything else under the sun and boy am I totally discouraged right now.

 My entire spine is literally degenerating.  I try to remain positive and upbeat but then when I wake up in pain like this it's hard to maintain that.  I don't take pain meds because they either kill my stomach and I end up sick, or they get me so goofy I can't function.  I'm really at my wits end with thos.