Well ... its about  4 am and  here I am - everyones sleeping.  Being on nighttime schedule is weird -having been doing it for so long- I am used to it.   H said I wouldnt ever be on the same time schedule as him so I decided I would stay up all night and keep his hours. THEN he says I should go to bed and why am I staying up all night?? WHa? So I decided I would cont to do this schedule. He cant say I didnt try to at least be up when he was.  He started his first day on a new schedule - Tranferred in the smae company - now has different shift. So I guess Ill have to switch it around again. I think he was jsut trying to get me to go to bed s that he could get onthe comp and talk to that person -who ever she is.  How they even met online Ill never know.  He told me two different stories so who knows? Tomorrow soccer game... love to watch my son play. Im very proud of him -he is the best thing in my life and he is  a really great person.  17 years and he has never once given me any grief- and he is even a teenager -go figure! Ha.     Ok wait take it back... when he was 5 years old one day ... we had the "who the boss" confrontation and I can say it wasnt much fun for either of us. He was so smart that he figured out how to take off the gate that was in his door ( it was up when he took naps) and decided he wasnt going to listen. Well HE found out that he wasnt the boss - lots of crying - but in the end- I won. People with small children.... let me yell to the roof tops>>>>>> When the are putting up a fuss and are not doing what you want them to do.. never let them win! Its So hard at the time and would be easier to give in and let them do what they want but dont do it I telllll yaaaa - I can tell you we left a park a couple of times saying ... if you dont stop that then we will leave- You WILLget tested... and after two warnings.. .we would leave. Then you get the oh noooo im sorry I wont do it again and there you are and YOU dont really want to leave... but you have to! That only happened twice and that was it. Its harder at the time BUT easier in the future to do things like that. If you cant control a 5 year  old... what happens when they get bigger!?? HA.  I think being married and raising a child was the very best time in my life.  It was a privledge that GOD gave to me - to take good care of this little person and help them become a good big person. I am so thankful for that- I think about that almost daily.Im looking forward to a new stage in my life soon- Scary cause I dont know what will happen. All I know for sure... is I want to be secure (just have things I need for survival-that kind of security) Im not impressed in the least when people think they are "something" because they have alot of money.   I could care less what kind of car a person drives... or what the newest Labels are... and needing to pay $1500 on a purse! Oh I wont EVEN get started on that one! HA.  Most important thing.... I want to find someone who I am CRAZY about and who is CRAZY  about me!  At the same time- even!   I really look forward to feeling like you cant get enough of each other!  I even dream about it. This guy in my dream... same reoccuring dream ... same re-occuring guy.... and its like i am lookign for him all over the place asking have you seen so and so.... he doesnt have a name... he DOES have a face... lol.. and everytime we find each other ... its unreal - how happy I feel in that dream.  I wake up and it seems so real for an hour or two and I keep thinking aboout it as much as possible until it fades away and I cant remember it anymore.  This is really weird typing randomly like this- never have done it before.