"missing you......."

Its been 2 months since i lost my angel.This month was her due date. Just Because time has passed doesn't mean that all is fine. My sadness, and my grief has not diminished with time.I cry for my little baby when no one is around." I miss you dearly Vaishu thinking that my house would have been lively this time around..with people ready to welcome you,your brother longing to hold and hug you,taking pictures as a complete family...I feel myself as a great failure..I could not keep up my promise to your brother on his sixth birthday.I said that he could meet you this month,instead we would be visiting your memorial. we will never forget you and stop missing you  even though you are so far that we cannot reach you". I am tired of pretending as my heart pounds in my chest. everyone wants to ignore me and my feelings.
                         "You cannot imagine what it was like for me that day to place a final kiss upon your cheek,and have to leave you forever. My heart is longing to kiss you and hug you tightly."i am very much broken and there is still a black cloud and hollow inside my heart which would never be filled again until i see my baby."love you tons baby girl".