Sad

Today is bad.  Why am I having so much trouble? Support group Monday was good for me.  Yesterday I just stayed in my chair all day so today I made myself clean and dust.  I am about halfway thru and had a melt down.  I don't want to be like this!  Still looking for a job but no luck.  Hoping that working will help. God, I know you are carrying me.  Please don't put me down.