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I'm so fucking impatient. My mom doesn't want me to go to the doctor, get steroid shots, antibiotics or anything for 6 months while she gives me vitamins and a good diet. Seriously fuck this shit. I would rather be able to go get the shots every week and be out of the pain. Taking so many vitamins makes me want to throw up and no eating what I want to eat is bull. I am not fat, but I'm not skinny, I am curvy and healthy. I have never dieted because I don't want to limit myself and life's to short, ya know? Now I can't have dairy or sugar, yeah right. Sugar is my god damn best friend. And I love food. Plus this gluten free and diets I read about for HS kinda help but don't cure it. I will have this disease forever, so whats the point?
I am in need of some shots. I am seriously like craving relief right now. And lotion and vitamins don't do shit. I hate the feeling of having a golf ball under your skin in multiple places. The one under my arm has been leaking for going on three weeks and I just keep thinking, where is all the pus and blood coming from? Like won't it ever stop. Its probably not good but I can't do to the doctor according to my mom. Plus I don't have $45 to go see my dermatologist. All my friends complain about gas and food taking all of their money and I've over here like oh sorry I'm broke because I spend my free time in hospitals.
My mom is getting mad at me for spending like every waking moment with my girlfriend. I missed a couple days at school but spent the night with her so she is mad. But we honestly don't do shit. We play video games, smoke weed, drive around, and make out. Not really stranious activity. If I was just sitting in a desk all day at school I don't know if it would be a big deal, although sitting forever sucks. But I do mani's a pedi's and wax and acrylic all day long. It might not be the best career for me because of the movement.
I was realizing after reading some of this, I seam like such a negative person. I am actually not. I am really bubbly and outgoing. I pride myself on my good attitude. Although most of it is fake, I am a really nice and happy person. People never seen me in a bad mood, mostly because I am the president at my school and I have to hold up a reputation. Again, this is a journal for me to vent and I guess I just need to get it out somewhere. Just so you guys don't think I'm some hate the world, emo type bitch. (:
I am in need of some shots. I am seriously like craving relief right now. And lotion and vitamins don't do shit. I hate the feeling of having a golf ball under your skin in multiple places. The one under my arm has been leaking for going on three weeks and I just keep thinking, where is all the pus and blood coming from? Like won't it ever stop. Its probably not good but I can't do to the doctor according to my mom. Plus I don't have $45 to go see my dermatologist. All my friends complain about gas and food taking all of their money and I've over here like oh sorry I'm broke because I spend my free time in hospitals.
My mom is getting mad at me for spending like every waking moment with my girlfriend. I missed a couple days at school but spent the night with her so she is mad. But we honestly don't do shit. We play video games, smoke weed, drive around, and make out. Not really stranious activity. If I was just sitting in a desk all day at school I don't know if it would be a big deal, although sitting forever sucks. But I do mani's a pedi's and wax and acrylic all day long. It might not be the best career for me because of the movement.
I was realizing after reading some of this, I seam like such a negative person. I am actually not. I am really bubbly and outgoing. I pride myself on my good attitude. Although most of it is fake, I am a really nice and happy person. People never seen me in a bad mood, mostly because I am the president at my school and I have to hold up a reputation. Again, this is a journal for me to vent and I guess I just need to get it out somewhere. Just so you guys don't think I'm some hate the world, emo type bitch. (:
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I\'m sorry to say so but I think it\'s a little strange that your mom wont let you go to your doctor and it could even be unhealthy for you.