why

I cant stop thinking about my brother or my sons and their families. I act like nothing is wrong with me and everything is great when in fact nothing is. Nothing is what it seems!!! I want to cry but I hold it in I want to scream but I say nothing. There is nothing I can do to help them its up to them now and thats the hard part. I have to be strong so the rest of my family will have someone to talk to. I wish I could make them see what they are doing. I wish I could do something instead of just listening and watching them kill themselves. What about all the kids that are involved why dont they care. I wish I could take everyone in and take care of them all but I cant. I wish I had someone to talk to.