Maybe.

    Everyone is in bed and I'm just sitting here all alone staring blankly at the screen in compleat silence. feeling slightly numb yet tearing up here and there. Every breath i take feels heavy with my head aching like always.I keep just staring at a pocket knife thinking about sliding it right across my wrist. to be able to control the pain if anyone should hurt me it should be me. Sad thing is my mind is so mixed up that this idea sound normal to me, I wouldn't honestly rather take a blade and run it across my skin every day and feel that pain over the pain others put me threw. Maybe i am just a psycho like everyone says.