I never write in my journal because i am not such a good writer or speller.But tonight i feal compelled.I wake in the morning with my heart broken.The teenage mutant turtles are my thought can you imagine how much the kids loved them.Power Rangeres they were pissa.Then came rock or rap.When Bobby was a baby he had his favorite stuffed animal Ernie from sesame street.When Bobby grew up i would bust his chops about Ernie.When Bobby was a little boy he just naturally lit a room.The best way i can describe it is DAADADA.Such a happy boy.I write tonight to say to Bobby i will never forget the things that made you happy,cause all these things also made me happy.I thank my neaphew for showing Auntie what life is about and even if it is a little boy crazy about a show called teenage mutant ninja turtles.Those are the beautiful moments to see a childs eyes light up.I thank god for giving me that in my life.I thank god for giving me Bobby and knowing there is light at the end of the TUNNEL.Just can't stop thinking of that baby boy who deserved so much better.Can't stop thinking of that young man who deserved to live.