Day 15
Well, I have been contacting a therapist for the past couple days. I emailed her last on Tuesday to set up an appointment, but haven't heard back from her at all yet. Now I don't know what to do really. Do I email her again, or do I just keep waiting?
I also, by the suggestion of another on another site, joined the dating site plentyoffish.com. Didn't go there really looking for a date, just someone I could talk to and maybe find a friend who I could to. I can't talk to any of my friends, or should I say friend because it would just feel really awkward. But as I was scrolling the forums on pof, I found a lot of the women are are turned off by guys who want to become female. I also joined Zoosk, just as a whim. Hate it since you can't message people or really look for people, but I keep it on in case any of them want to contact me on facebook.
Why is it so hard to find a girl to talk to? Is it because I'm a guy and all they think I want is sex? I've never even had sex before and I put that in my profiles, but still I get no looks.
It's just a big slap in the face when even on online dating, you're rejected by everybody. I have 1 friend, and I don't even like to call him a friend because we never hang out or talk unless we're at school. And some of the 'friends' I have online don't even talk to me anymore. I met this woman in Illinois online, have been talking with her for a while. I completely opened up to her about wanting to have SRS and basically most of my life. I now I find out she may not be who she says she is. And might not be a she at all. That just hurts. But it doesn't change my decision.
Ever since I graduated high school, I have just felt completely rejected. I can't even find work anymore. Put in applications at a bunch of places last weekend, and didn't get 1 phone call. I feel like just dying. How do you succeed in life when everyone that you come across just puts you down.
How am I supposed to feel about myself, when no one wants to be near me? I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like the biggest loser on the planet.
I also, by the suggestion of another on another site, joined the dating site plentyoffish.com. Didn't go there really looking for a date, just someone I could talk to and maybe find a friend who I could to. I can't talk to any of my friends, or should I say friend because it would just feel really awkward. But as I was scrolling the forums on pof, I found a lot of the women are are turned off by guys who want to become female. I also joined Zoosk, just as a whim. Hate it since you can't message people or really look for people, but I keep it on in case any of them want to contact me on facebook.
Why is it so hard to find a girl to talk to? Is it because I'm a guy and all they think I want is sex? I've never even had sex before and I put that in my profiles, but still I get no looks.
It's just a big slap in the face when even on online dating, you're rejected by everybody. I have 1 friend, and I don't even like to call him a friend because we never hang out or talk unless we're at school. And some of the 'friends' I have online don't even talk to me anymore. I met this woman in Illinois online, have been talking with her for a while. I completely opened up to her about wanting to have SRS and basically most of my life. I now I find out she may not be who she says she is. And might not be a she at all. That just hurts. But it doesn't change my decision.
Ever since I graduated high school, I have just felt completely rejected. I can't even find work anymore. Put in applications at a bunch of places last weekend, and didn't get 1 phone call. I feel like just dying. How do you succeed in life when everyone that you come across just puts you down.
How am I supposed to feel about myself, when no one wants to be near me? I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like the biggest loser on the planet.
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