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Well ANOTHER of my friends who had her baby just before I lost my Mason is pregnant with her second child. I HATE these jealous feeling, but I can't help it. Why can't I get pregnant already and give birth to a healthy baby? Life just isn't fair :(. I get so tired of "your time will come." What if it doesn't!?! And quite frankly I want my baby boy I lost...bad day. I'll get over it. Boo!
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deleted_user
deleted_user

So sorry you are having a bad day my friend. Hugs!!!!!!
Kelly0713
Kelly0713

Oh I can so relate - some people just seem so lucky to float through life surrounded by blessings! I am sorry honey. I know it\'s hard to allow yourself to have feelings you don\'t approve of, but it\'s ok to be jealous, mad and sad. I hope you get your baby very so and I know it\'s never going to be soon enough. Big hug
melissaw27
melissaw27

I completely understand! I am coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my Mason\'s birth and almost loosing my life. I get so angry and bitter when I see people get pregnant so easily. It hurts and I know a baby would make it easier, but I believe that I will never feel the void from his loss. xoxo
MEDsMom
MEDsMom

Thanks ladies. You are definitely right Melissa. I too will never be the same without my Mason. He would have been two this coming September. I still miss him every day. I also just had a 6 week miscarriage after TTCing for over 8 months. I am doing good emotionally considering. I just get so frustrated with the waiting and how hard it seems for us when literally everyone around me is announcing pregnancies and healthy births. I am glad for them, because of course I don\'t wish bad for them. I just wish it was our turn...hopefully soon. I am thankful that for now at least it seems that I can get pregnant naturally. I just need it to stick this next time! I also hope that when it does I can enjoy my pregnancy and not live in fear and doubt as I lost my Mason the day after his due date with a seemingly, extremely healthy pregnancy...oh well. I\'ll just keep praying and try and keep faith that we will have a baby in our arms soon instead of just in our hearts and memories.