I am still sleeping very well.  Had an incident at home on Sunday.  Was afraid to post it here but where else could I post it?  So what happened?  Well, it started off with doing something good.  I wanted to send an email out describing in brief about the last year and attaching pics of the family.  I typed the whole email and added addresses.  I found all the pics except of me.  I attached those.   I do not look well in most pics due to BP and lack of sleep and being obese...not vanity.  I just cannot let people see how I have deteriorated from such a healthy person in my past to what I am today...  It is just awful...  I know I should not feel so bad about how I am now but I do.  I still feel inside that I am young and healthy... So I remebered we had a pic of myself in the new digital camera.  So I went to down load it but no software on the lap top.  So I try to find the software on the net to no avail.  Tension mounted...  Then I searched for the CD.  Had to go thru 100s of CDs.  THis made me really mad...  But I found the CD so was happy.  But just for a moment.  I started installation.  Then I thought, what if at the end of installation, this program reboots the computer?  So I went to the email and attempted to save it.  Then my wife walks in and wants to look at the eamil.  "You can't send to them..."  So I went to erase the email address and the damn cursor jumped and I deleted another address.   I just lost it.  I exploded and BP anger ensued.  I threw stuff around, anything I put my hands on.  A mess everywhere.  I could do not more.  My wife cleaned up my mess and left in a heated fury.  I feel bad that I just cannot control my anger, even with sleep now.  I must accept I am sick. So I stayed in my room all day.  Deep dark thoughts.  Took meds which made it worse. I am better now.  God just did not want me to send an email out to everyone this christmas... Jay